I’m a God nerd. I
like talking about God and I enjoy the company of people that like talking
about God. Some people will talk sports, others about popular culture, and
still others video games. But my mind is consumed with Scripture. If you are to
accept that God is there, how could you not want to know everything about Him
that is humanly possible? Wouldn’t you want to know what He told us about
Himself? When your eyes see something that wondrous, that beautiful, they seldom
wish to look away. That is the perspective of a God nerd.
The sad truth though, is that my type seems far and in
between. Sure you can find Christians that like an odd conversation. But I find
it hard to find people that really want to consistently dig in deeply (or even shallowly).
God’s there, but they almost have Him compartmentalized off to the side. It’s
like He’s in a cage and they let Him out once in a while to play with Him. Then
they return Him into the cage and carry on with their life,
I don’t generally care to discuss how my work day was. I
want to talk about those moments when God’s light broke through. I want to
discuss insights from Scripture. And I love expounding my study for those that
haven’t the desire or will to study. I
don’t mean to suggest that everyone should be a theologian. Or maybe I do. It’s
just the way I’m hardwired and I don’t understand how God can’t be the central
point by which every conversation orbits. This is likely a reflection of the
body and its many different parts, each complimenting the other and doing a
different thing. There is a degree by which we should all seek God out, but
even in the OT everyone wasn’t a Levite. If David spent all his time studying
Torah he wouldn’t have been able to run the Kingdom. Those that studied Torah
informed him of God’s will so he could rule justly. I’m talking about the depth
and breadth of study; everyone should grow in knowledge of God. If you’re not
growing you’re standing still. And when you’re standing still it’s easier to
walk backwards.
I noticed this
theological loneliness decades ago. And the
unfortunate consequence of it is you learn to blend in with those around you. It’s
like in the movie “
The Body Snatchers”, where a couple of humans had learnt that they
could pass undetected in amongst the aliens by not expressing any emotion. You
learn to never talk about God. And it seems to me that when you don’t talk
about Him you start to forget about Him.